my conclusion: i am a person of extremes - there is really little doubt on the matter. i have analyzed myself to most likely a clinically exhaustive degree, thrown myself under the microscope, investigated the origins of characteristics, quirks and qualities and found that the the only constant within and without me is my tendency toward the extreme.

the irony of this grand revelation - i have also discovered that the key to life is balance - no matter the dilemma in your life, generally, the answer is finding balance. so while i suppose that there is something infinitely tantalizing or, at least, temporarily fascinating about being a person of extremes - while i may represent a relatively wild ride to the occasional third party, an anomaly of sorts to those on the outside (at least to those that are freakishly stable) ... for me, i wonder if the fact that balance alludes me in essentially every facet of my life will inevitably lead to an entire life void of real peace.

and i'm left to question whether i should embrace my inclination toward the extreme, find value in the tension resulting from my lack of equilibrium or continue to toil away at what is in all likelihood a futile search for some form of natural harmony.

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