work is stressing me the hell out . . . i'm not sure i can be emphatic enough on that.

and i was thinking it odd that now that i broke up with beth, i don't think about laura as much but then last night i obsessed about possibly writing her a letter. is that completely insane?! to say that things did not end well with us is a gross understatement but i wanted to .. . i don't know, just say something about how i was so, so screwed up back then but look what i've done with my life - i turned out alright, got a law degree, have a career and a beautiful, precocious toddler and i'm not the waste of a human being you might have thought at the end. BUT . . . no, b/c there are hurts on both sides of that line and although i've mostly forgiven, i don't think that's a door i want to reopen. but still, i think about her a lot.

and as far as the package goes, i'm not sending it back. mostly b/c i'll have $3 in the bank when the checks clear and i have $33 in my purse to last me for two weeks - clearly, no way to fund the postal service at this time. however, from now on, anything at all i receive will be returned to sender immediately and morbid curiosity will just have to lie.

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