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You are Thoth, the most intellectual of the egyptian gods. You savor the muses in all their forms, and you'd rather observe than take action. You are considered peerlessly just, and so you are often considered the arbiter of the gods.

Interesting . . .

anyway, had a great weekend. . . took a vacation of sorts. my dad, brother (16), and sister (11) spent the weekend with the divine and me. we had a really, really good time . . . and i failed to do more than two loads of laundry and did no work. but it was the first time in a really, really long time that i felt totally relaxed. my sister and i went shopping sunday for the divine - she had absolutely no spring/summer clothes - it is very expensive to clothe someone when you're starting from scratch - however, we had a ball doing it. spent way, way, way too much money - but i'm not going to think about that right now (i'll think about it tonight when i sit down to pay bills).

i wonder how many more good times we'll have when i actually come out to my dad. not many, i'm sure. and although, i suppose that should make me resent the weekend on some level - i felt more grateful to have it b/c it was kind of a glimpse of the relationship we could have or could have built, the dad he was to me - if not for the fact that i was born this way. i'll lose him when i come out to him, i have no doubts or unrealistic fantasies about that. but i was still grateful for this weekend - maybe the fact that i know his love is conditional on some level should cheapen the value i place on our relationship, but it doesn't. it makes me sad that i'll be losing it. i am going to wait though until his next round of test results before i spring the news on him and the next tests are April 4th.

beth will be here on the 26th for a few days. i miss her. i really, really miss her. but i don't know how fair it is to have a relationship that so conveniently fits into my half-in/half-out life, you know? with no way of placing a time table on how long it will be this way. it doesn't seem fair to her. it isn't fair to her. although, she claims to be understanding about it and know at least in part where i'm coming from.

i got a big promotion of sorts last week, which i was very happy about. and on that note, i suppose i should get to work . . .

Happy St. Patty's day to all . . .

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