Hmmm . . . what to talk about. I so should be working . . . and I will after lunch, but i wanted to really get started with this. i think it could be therapeutic, and i think it could be fun.

my partner will be in tomorrow, she lives in another state. how can we be partners and live 1000 miles apart?! well, we're working on that little detail. i miss her, but i'm getting somewhat used to the distance thing. is that good or bad? i think it's good; it isn't as if i don't cry like crazy when she leaves each time or miss her so badly the entire time she's away. she's my first open relationship since making the big revelation to the most relevant members of my family. i suppose that some think that means that we won't last - that you can't get it right the very first time - but i don't agree. maybe if we were 16 or something but not now.

there is also an age difference - 11 years - again, not a problem for me. in fact, i think that it is quite beneficial. i mean, i worry a little about when we're older, but not for the next thirty years. and if she gives me 30 years, then i'll gladly deal with whatever comes up later.

my daughter, the divine, just turned 2. she is the single most wonderful thing that has ever come into my life. she is so bright and such a happy little girl. i know that she knows she is very loved. she was conceived medically - i worry about how she'll accept that someday and the fact that she has two moms. but we're starting now teaching the concept of different kinds of families, etc. so hopefully, with a good foundation in that specific area, there won't be negative repercussions. and i know that we will provide her with a healthy and loving home.

what else to throw in? i am an attorney, just started practicing three years ago. if i had it to do over again, this is NOT what i would choose but such as it is. i'm drowning in student loan debt and can't change careers now, so, that's the way it goes, i guess. and i did manage to get out of private practice, which is a big help.

well, that's the preliminary stuff. from here on out, maybe i can write more about daily thoughts.

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